He may be a drug addict, but he doesnt steal.
especially from his best friends. :[
i dont understand where she would even
get that from.

"settling" in a relationship. it's ruining your life, and their's.

NO gas money, no gas. Can't just get up and do whatever. I have to save what little gas I have to bring my mom and dad to work. One fucking car for three Fucking people. SON OF A BITCH. 

 it's been a really long time since i've cried myself to sleep. 
and to be honest, i dont even know what came over me last night.
i haven't been honest to God sad in so long...and it just came over me. 

I dont know, maybe i have been sad, i've just suppressed it for so long
that i dont even feel it anymore. I mean I do feel a bit numb these days. 
like i'm just fumbling through life, not living it. it's just sad cos I dont know
how to actually live it anymore. 



























i think i might volunteer. 

 tummy hurts, head hurts...just all around not feeling good.
and now mama keeps asking me about me getting a job.
yo, i've been doing what i can! stfu!

had a good night. 



but for real though. I want my tattoos done already.
Not even kidding, but i guess i'd have to get a job
before i can actually get them. you know, no money. 
haha 


by the end of this summer i will have alteast started on 
them. No joke. :] 

well its time to sleep. Later guys. 

I don't care what people think. I will
always and forever love Good Charlotte.
And I miss my poster. =\


 

 Bitch be lurkin too damn hard. 

 if anyone decides to be nice and buy me something, buy me the Sex and the City movie
and/or series on dvd. It would be greatly appriciated. :D 





Not to mention i would love you for the rest of my and your life. :] 

 ehhhhhhh. these damn work outs have been kicking my ass! 
My legs are killing me! Eh, it's better to feel it than not. That means 
the shit is working. fuck yeah! maybe this means in a few weeks I'll
be able to tell. I hope so. I'm getting too fat, for real. I haven't been this 
in about 3 years. >.<

plus, this summer I might be able to send in those SG pics. :D 
oh yeah! 







Or maybe not. depends on how i feel at the time. :] 
PS. Evan's voice is Heaven. :] 

my day was lame. i spent about 3 hours of it at the Unemployment Office. I hope this works, for real.
My stomache is pretty girgly right now. =\

 

 
I dont have a grudge against you. I'd have to actually care, but i dont. 
just because i dont want to go through the same shit with you doesnt mean
that i have a grudge against you. It just means I'm tired of getting the shit end
of our "friendship". So, have a nice life without me, because i know I will with
out you. 


If you're even talking about me, but if you aren't then don't worry, its still true. 

 I have put in more applications that i can even imagine. 
I've worked for 2 straight hours trying to get a job. 
and I'm guessing that i'll have to just wait and see
how this works out. I'm hoping more than anything that 
we will be making our way to Orlando atleast in the next two 
months. Weather we stay there or not, it's my dream weekend. :D

No joke.  

well it did for me anyways. every day i was pissed
about something. this week will be better, i hope.

I dont understand. Why do these people
keep coming out of the woodwork talkin to
me? I haven't talked to them in months and
here they come.

i was fine without hearing from them or seeing
them.


WTF?! 
anyways, I'm looking forward to
hearing B play. For real. :]

its started out pretty lame, but then it got a lot better. 
mostly when we started about getting drunk, but yeah. 
had to show jessi who was boss. lmfao

Jessi and I found it on our refridgerator. i really didnt want to read it, but jessi did. I heard a little of what was in it. fighting off the tears is the hardest thing to do. aisudfhkajsdf...I swear I think my mom is trying to convince herself that she isnt wanting to be with my dad...idk. whatever. 
i dont really want to keep typing on it right now. plus i'm hungry. later. 

it was horrible. I was laying on our couch, sleeping. It was really dark, like it is when its about 2 or 3 in the morning and everyone is asleep. I'm all wrapped up in my big white pillow blanket and all of the sudden i see someone start coming at me. I automaticly get terrified and he's got a knife to my kneck. I plee with him, "Please, take whatever you want." and he starts to try and stab me, I'm trying to fight back but its not really working. and then i woke up...